You’ve already got some good advice but in no particular order:

1. You are much more articulate than a lot of people. You can read and write better than a lot of people.

2. You’ve been at least emotionally and physically abused

3. You know how to work hard.

4. ADHD is somewhat treatable with medication, at least improvable.

What that translates to:

1. no it isn’t too late, especially if you keep working hard.

2. the things you blame yourself for likely isn’t your fault. Therapy, when you can afford it, should be a priority.

3. working hard is so important for employment. Most jobs don’t require high intelligence. Working hard with a good attitude and working with people is so much more important for most careers.

4. learning disabilities suck. ADHD is hard. You can still learn coping mechanisms and find ways or a career that fits better with it.

Life is hard. It’s harder for you than most. It can still be worth living, but it will be up to you to find a way. I think you can.

This is a very meta unpopular opinion…

Also, it is wrong. And unpopular. So I need to up vote?

If it makes you feel better they’re super shitty to their paying customers too.

Microsoft makes its money from business and enterprise customers. Home users are a drop in the bucket.

Money from home users is from stealing data.

My favorite is when the question starts out with “I don’t have insurance and can’t afford to see a doctor, but I have dandruff and it just won’t go away”, and the first response is “I know you said you can’t afford it, but you should really just see a doctor”.

Like, sure, homeopathy is slightly better than snake oil because it doesn’t generally have random poison in it, so getting recommendations for that is worthless. But that doesn’t mean asking people who have been through similar things for advice is also worthless.

https://rentry.co/megathread

That is a good place to start your journey.

Yes, but also have you seen some game development forums? Oof. Some people just need their gaming chair hooked up to a sun facing launchpad.

Ok, audiobook isn’t the same as an ebook.

Spotify is absolute ass for audiobooks and podcasts. I wish there was something better for streaming, although one of these days I’ll get around to self hosting. Maybe after retirement…

Anyway, for audiobooks I used “Voice Audiobook Player”, it’s free and open source, minimal permissions required.

For anyone wondering about podcasts, “Podcast Addict”. It has too many menus and options, can be confusing, but still a million times better than Spotify. Once you have it set up the way you want those options are very nice. Still confusing at times though :D

It’s been a while since I had the opportunity for audiobooks, so those specifically I’m a little out of the loop. Audiobookbay was a thing at some point.

For e books… Z-library and/ or Anna’s archive. The reader I use is ReadEra premium, it can handle pretty much any format although default to pick is epub. I don’t think you really need to buy premium, I just did because I wanted to support them. I’ve been using it for forever with almost no problems. You can adjust the things you want (font, spacing, light/dark, etc), but the basic format when reading is very simple once you have it set up